i love to see the temple

This summer has been really interesting. I am now done with my first year of college (whoa) i am also done attending the university of montana. On May 14th, i excitedly looked out my 10th floor window to watch a white cadillac escalade pull up. My mom and grandma got out, and of course my first reaction was i want to go home right now! After we got everything all straigtened up and pulled out of the dorm parking lot, i found myself completely turned around just staring at campus. This puzzled me after i had been miserable for a whole semester, and then i had to try super hard to hold back tears. I dont cry, so that was huge for me. As i sat a silent mess in the back seat trying to act tough as usual, thoughts raced through my mind on why i could be feeling the way i was. I realized it: I was leaving an essential stepping stone in my life. I met the best friend ever at school, and had to leave her, i had the freedom to choose without criticism, i lost that, evenmore so i had the power to make the outcome of everyday, i kinda lost that to. With the bad always comes good, and to later find out, i would continue growing and changing long after i saw the last of Grizzly Washington Stadium off to the right side of the highway. Now i am home obviously. I am preparing to go to BYU-Idaho, which i will be paying for by myself since my choice to be mormon is not supported by some. I got to visit rexburg yesterday and i realized that no matter what it took i needed to be there in September. You cannot put a price on happiness. I truely believe that. The first thing i looked for when we got to Rexburg was the temple. The temple is the one thing that can bring me pure happiness and joy to my soul when i see it. I cant even describe the feeling i get when i am even in a 100 foot radius of its beauty. I am so blessed to have a temple a few blocks from my apartment next year! More so i am blessed to have the opportunity to not only grow mentally and physically, but spiritually as well, and that is something i find increasing important in my life today.

Parable of the Princess

So I realized I always blog about how I am feeling. From now on I am going to change that up. Today I will tell you a story :] (my life plan).


-Once upon a time there was a young woman named Brooke Sue Tabacco.

She was a freshman at the University of Montana, soon to be an awesome sophomore. She was not happy where she was at and she realized her fairy tale wasnt working out quite the way it was supposed to. Brooke wanted to write her own story and make everything happen the way she had always dreamed. The problem was, she hadnt actually thought about how she wanted her fairytale to go. After much thought, she finally was able to solve all of her problems.

- First: She wanted to graduate from Brigham Young Univeristy Idaho with a masters degree in education!!! -Next: She wanted to use that masters degree to get an amazing job teaching special education!!! Next: She realized she had lived in the Western United States for long enough. She wanted to move to the East, and hence she chose the most awesome state ever of Indiana!
Finally: After all of the major personal details were worked out, she realized it couldnt be a fairytale without a super cute husband, and much later to come children! She decided she wanted nothing more than to be married in the Bountiful Temple, when she eventually found the right guy! And in the end, its just a crazy young brunette with a mind full of dreams. Brooke Sue Tabacco will fulfill her life plan. She will be happy, and she will work hard to succeed. She will have a life full of helping those in need, going to TONS of BUTLER basketball games (wohoooo Indiana), and living her fairytale the way she had always wanted to. You might find her life plan humorous and far fetched, but guess who will be laughing when she totally achieves ALL of this and much more :]

THE END!

YSA

So this weekend in missoula was the YSA conference...or if you dont know the young single adult conference. I was a little skeptical at first about going, but i am SOOOO glad i did! I had a blast, met a lot of new people, played a lot of sports, realized im not THAT bad at dancing, and felt the spirit like never before. It was so amazing to see a group of young adults that were more interested in spending their weekend doing workshops and service projects for the community, than making bad choices. I am so grateful that i have the opportunity to live the life that i do, i am truely blessed in so many ways, and it is good to realize that. Sometimes i waver but without weakness we cannot build strength. Without doubt we cannot gain hope. Despite how people and things change i can always find comfort in the gospel and the savior. This weekend couldnt have been much better...i mean who doesnt love playing volleyball and SOCCER with new people all night! Oh and did i mention i am almost done in Missoula, only a month!!!! I cant wait to go to BYU Idaho. I am so happy right now eventhough a lot of stuff has gone wrong lately. Sooo thats all i've got right now...thanks for reading (if anyone is ha).

What its Like

So for some reason i have been turning to music for a lot of answers lately...today i was wondering how people who follow the lord and try to be like him only follow some of his traits to bring into their own life. I see a lot of fakeness going on and a lot of judgment as well. These are two really un chirstlike attributes if you ask me. Jesus wasnt fake, so you shouldnt be either. Any way this isnt a rant i wanted to share a song that really touched me tonight, i wont put the lyrics up because of profanity, and some weird lines, but overall the song really gets across what i have been thinking the most about. You never know what it is like to be someone else unless you walk in there shoes, and as the song goes: "I've seen a rich man beg, i've seen a good man sin, i've seen a tough man cry, i've seen a loser win, and a sad man grin, I heard an honest man lie, I've seen the goodside of bad, and the downside of up, and everything between. Everlast couldnt have put it any better. Dont judge, love your enemy, accept those you wouldn't, be compassionate for all, hate none, and then you really might know what its like.
P.S. the song is number 20 on my playlist...yes it does swear im sorry

Its been forever!

Wow!!!! I just realized that i actually have a blog...i guess i totally forgot about it. Maybe i remembered because i feel like i could write something right now to help me feel better. So its March already, i am almost done at the University of Montana thank goodness! This school year has had ups and downs, i have learned a lot, i have grown as a person, i havent put on the freshman 15 yet i have lost weight wahooo, and i have met people that will change my life. I find myself wondering lately why certain people have come into my life, why they had to leave, or why they are still around. I have met a few people that i will not want to leave come May, and i have honestly met a few people that i cant WAIT to leave. Despite how much some people have impacted me in a bad way down here, they have impacted me is the most important part. I think we learn lessons from people no matter good or bad, and i have learned my fair share of lessons this year. My biggest thing i am doing right now is working on judgement. Who am I to judge another...and who are they to judge me. I think its important that we actually remember that everyone is a person, they have feelings too, and even if they are different, they chose to be that way and that is who they are and you cant change that. I cant even express how grateful for the opportunity i have been given to attend BYU Idaho this fall, it will bless my life so much. I will be able to live in peace without crazy girls running around, i will be able to step into an elevator without the smell of drugs and alcohol, and i will be seen as a daughter of god, not a loser who hates partying. I will get to go to college with my best friend Alex and i am so excited for that! Even though this week has been really hard for me, i realized that i am sooo strong even at my weakest point. I will be able to make it through anything that is thrown at me and that is so comforting. I have been humbled, i have been betrayed, i have been loved, i have been hated, i have been judged, i have been looked up to, i have been an example, i have been strong, i have been weak, i have been changed, i have been burned, i have been complimented, and out of all of the things that i have been, I HAVE BEEN TESTED and that is by far the most important to me. Thank you Missoula, Montana, for forever changing my life and helping me grow as a person.

p.s its march madness people!!! get your game on...GO ZAGS :]

Home sweet Home

This weekend i was blessed with being able to go home. The first night i got home i was so happy just to see the entering Great Falls sign. Naturally i hate it here, but i guess you dont know what you have until its gone. I got to hang out with my cousin and some good friends, and we played frisbee :] and they got me my sonic so that was simply amazing! The second day i got a new haircut. I finally got to add some natural looking highlights to my virgin hair...and i finally got an A-line bob...no more ponytails and being lazy :[. We then went to Halloween 2 which of course was not scary but had a fair share of blood and guts everywhere. We had a fire pit, and Hunter and Stephanie roasted my pizza rolls and brownie bites (how did that work guys?). My last day we just hung out and ate pizza, and for bragging rights or maybe embarrassment actually, i ate a whole pizza by myself...ahhh well the boys had a few pieces. We went and got some ice cream, and got to relive the only movie that scares me: Dead Silence, and come to find out, i laughed through it! Even though this sounds like i had a lot of fun, which dont get me wrong i did, but i also had my share of hard times. I finally said how i felt for the first time in a long time, and come to find out people are not happy when you actually confront them...who knew?! I laughed a lot, learned an abundance, cried a little, and ate lots of yummy food :] It was so nice to be home with people who truely care about me, and will always be there for me...families are forever...and that to me is the greatest blessing ever! Without my family i would be lost, alone, and would not be who i am today, so thank you so much all of you, you have no idea how much you mean to me. And Hunter thanks for listening to me cry for a half hour, it really helped and i feel so much better. You still owe me a turtle by the way but that can come later. Sorry so random and off topic, but to finish out, i would just like to thank everyone who supports me again. Well everyone i must head off to missoula now, its time to be a Griz again!

College

So i am not going to write much, but i wanted to share my first day experience. When we got to Missoula, it took like 5 trips to the car and 5 people to haul all of my stuff up. My dad self lofted my bed, which is not supposed to happen. It tooks us like 3 hours to move everything in, and to our suprise we had to go buy some more stuff. The room turned out cute so i was super pumped, and the best part is is that its not even cluttered. My roomate is super cool and we hung out for a while, then me and the family went to the mall to shop of course, and got red robin yummy :]. I came back and we watched the Covenent, sexy guys! I got to go see the showers which are tiny, and then we went to sleep. While i was sleeping, a cork board fell on my head, and i am suprised i didnt fall off my three feet high bed ahhhh. I finally got to shower in the morning which was cool, it took about 15 minutes to heat up, so i took a cold shower! Cant wait for class to start, but i am nervous...wish me luck.